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all.about.anna

im a bit complicated. i guess thats kind of like a defense mechanism because once you get to know me, you will learn im quit simple. lets talk about little things about me first. i hate seafood. i cant stand the taste the smell or the texture. the thought alone makes me gag. lol. im clumsy. i swear everything i own breaks. even if its built like the titanic. ill be the iceburg that hits it. i get random bruises and dont realize them for days. then i have no explaination to where they might have come from. i tend to procrastinate a lot, but i will always get the job done. im hard working and focused. in the last year alone i have grown so much. i have rided myself of people i thought were going to be in my life forever. a few actually. it hurt a whole lot but after sitting on a stairwell in the middle of the night at a resort in florida crying my eyes out, i came to the conclusion that the pain will subside... and it did. the scar is there yes but the lesson was taking strongly. i dont need anyone in my life who doesnt need me in theres. i have to admit on that note though. i hold on to people tightly. i want to live and know that i made a difference in atleast one persons life. so i tend to try to make you see it instead of you taking the time to see it on your own. i guess i should apologize for that a head of time. lets just jump into the more intimate stuff because well, that is the purpose for this blog. so you can know me. well the parts of me that i publish. if i get close to you i will in some ways try to push you away. just to see if you are willing enough to not let it happen. i know it sounds bad but thats how i am. no matter how i try to change it. im looooud! extremely loud, no matter what im doing. walking , talking, chillin, making love. i blame it on being italian. my excuse is "im italian, my voice carries". i yell at my son, id rather do that though because i do not want to put my hands on him. so thats how i get my point across. i am really sensitive. i fall fast and my heart is really big. im the type who will randomly kiss you all the time. rub your head while your laying on my lap. ask you if you want a massage more then youd expect. i love to touch though. its my favorite. im very affectionate. i have my insecurites i am a female and im human. i want a love that makes it hard to sleep because my reality is so much better than my dreams. i mean im not naive enough to think that love is going to be like that all the time, but id go through a lot of pain for a few moments of happiness because its worth it. im the type that will give you the shirt off my back in the middle of a snow storm. if i tell you i care for you i will prove it. sometimes i come on really strong and its because i dont want to lose you. my life isnt perfect. im not in the spot i want to be but there is nothing but future and progression for me. i refuse to go backwords. i want someone by my side that understands that we dont just go through life we "grow" through life. being the softy that i am i long for someone to grow with. someone that knows that life will be rocky but the sturdy foundation that will be set in stone wont alter. an unaltering love. to get anywhere you have to start from somewhere. i believe in love. my screwed up past will never change that. i know that someone will see the potential in me. someone will see past my flaws and accept me for the complicated. sincere. crazy. loving. jealous. life loving. mother. daughter. sister. friend. and true companion i am. someone, someday will see past my rough exterior and know that behind all of my madness im completely simple. i will never ask for diamonds or pearls or gucci bags. im not that type. just give me my man, my son, my family and friends and you will have the happiest girl in the world.


"I'm stubborn, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times I'm hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
-Marilyn Monroe