Im sittin in a dark room and my thoughts are racin... again
I wish you were here and I question where youve been....
I feel like Im going crazy and noone can help me....
Then my mind flashes back and this is what I see...
The day you passed away.. I didnt grasp it at all..
I got the call my from Tae.. I remember I just wanted to fall..
Out in pain and tears.. I couldnt catch my breath and I still cant face my fears
My fears, that your gone and that this is really real, I dont believe it though as Im sittin here in tears..
I feel like I can pick up the phone and call you, though I havent tried,
Like in my heart I know your gone but in my mind I dont belive it so I tell myself I have no reason to cry
Im thinkin of you all day, everyday and I wish you were here so bad,
To watch Dai grow up, even when hes bad, it kills my inside when he asks about his dad
The dad the doesnt phone and the dad that doesnt call
Not because you dont want to be here, thats not it at all,
This little man that looks just like you, is never going to get to meet
The man who fathered him and the man who swept me off my feet..
I miss you so much Juany and I wish I could let you know,
That Im sorry for the pain we went through and that you alone helped me grow,
Into the mother that I am today and the woman Ive become,
Alls we have left are memories and your two beautiful sons..
My tears are never ending and neither is my pain,
I try to force a smile on my face day to day and maintain,
This positive attitude like you had, That made you who you were today,
That "Flawless Vic" perspective that made everything wrong,..... "OK"
You had this unspoken strength and you always stood so proud,
Even in trials and tribulations, fears, broken hearts, sickness, and doubts,
Noone could puncture that surface no matter how hard he or she tried,
You always stood with your chin and middle finger up, bound to touch the sky..
As you are now, touching the sky and watching us all from above,
The say we arent ment to keep Angles, were just supposed to feel there love,
Angles are there to protect us when the worse just cant get any worse,
Angles wrap there arms around you and protect you from the worst....
Even though I dont believe your gone and if this letter is all I get,
I just want to say I love you Juandel and noone will ever forget,
The person that you were and who your children will one day be,
With you as there father, they are bound to succeed..
Bound to fight all expectations, of those who want them to fail,
They will rise above like there father and they alone will prevail,
All the obsticals that the world sets up "In The Event Of There Demise",
Juandel and Dai'Jon will live in your memory and like there father they'll together "Touch The Sky"
I wish you were here and I question where youve been....
I feel like Im going crazy and noone can help me....
Then my mind flashes back and this is what I see...
The day you passed away.. I didnt grasp it at all..
I got the call my from Tae.. I remember I just wanted to fall..
Out in pain and tears.. I couldnt catch my breath and I still cant face my fears
My fears, that your gone and that this is really real, I dont believe it though as Im sittin here in tears..
I feel like I can pick up the phone and call you, though I havent tried,
Like in my heart I know your gone but in my mind I dont belive it so I tell myself I have no reason to cry
Im thinkin of you all day, everyday and I wish you were here so bad,
To watch Dai grow up, even when hes bad, it kills my inside when he asks about his dad
The dad the doesnt phone and the dad that doesnt call
Not because you dont want to be here, thats not it at all,
This little man that looks just like you, is never going to get to meet
The man who fathered him and the man who swept me off my feet..
I miss you so much Juany and I wish I could let you know,
That Im sorry for the pain we went through and that you alone helped me grow,
Into the mother that I am today and the woman Ive become,
Alls we have left are memories and your two beautiful sons..
My tears are never ending and neither is my pain,
I try to force a smile on my face day to day and maintain,
This positive attitude like you had, That made you who you were today,
That "Flawless Vic" perspective that made everything wrong,..... "OK"
You had this unspoken strength and you always stood so proud,
Even in trials and tribulations, fears, broken hearts, sickness, and doubts,
Noone could puncture that surface no matter how hard he or she tried,
You always stood with your chin and middle finger up, bound to touch the sky..
As you are now, touching the sky and watching us all from above,
The say we arent ment to keep Angles, were just supposed to feel there love,
Angles are there to protect us when the worse just cant get any worse,
Angles wrap there arms around you and protect you from the worst....
Even though I dont believe your gone and if this letter is all I get,
I just want to say I love you Juandel and noone will ever forget,
The person that you were and who your children will one day be,
With you as there father, they are bound to succeed..
Bound to fight all expectations, of those who want them to fail,
They will rise above like there father and they alone will prevail,
All the obsticals that the world sets up "In The Event Of There Demise",
Juandel and Dai'Jon will live in your memory and like there father they'll together "Touch The Sky"
1 comments:
wow thats deep right there RIP
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